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Suicide...
August 18, 2012, 5:59AM
by: Analiethia
topic: Life

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There is a lot to be said here, but where to start?

It's that time of year again when I am reminded of those people that are no longer in my life because they chose not to be and all sorts of emotions are coming up. Sadness, grief, anger, that's a big one, and a very small detached part of me is laughing crazily at them for being so stupid. Perhaps they just wanted to be sure they had the last word.

I have mixed views on this because I been on both sides of the coin here. I understand why a lot of people do it, and yet I also hold contempt for those that do. I am reminded of The Sunset Limited as I write this. I hate how people that do this don't realize it effects everyone around them, or do and that just adds to their reasoning behind it. It's so selfish!

I wonder what they could have been... I sometimes blame myself for not seeing the signs. I wonder if I had been there would things have went down that way?

All but one were drug related in some way. And that brings me to another issue I have but I'll get to that later. The one that wasn't drug related was the sister of the one that started the whole thing. She walked in on her brother's dead body after she missed a phone call from him about 30 minutes before he did it. The others, while drugs were a common theme, it was a combination of that and the first suicide that started the chain reaction. She blamed herself for it then then next one for her and so on...

This is why these things happen in groups because when you do this you hurt people deeply, at least the one's that care about you. I went to 9 funerals in as many months, for that very reason. I miss them so much, part of me hates them for it though.

I wonder if they had called me before hand would I have made a difference, or like his sister would I just have joined him? I wonder if he/they had just passed out instead of staying awake would he/they have felt the same in the morning? Drugs warp your mind, and things become duller with some and others become more intense. So if you are on drugs and are thinking about killing yourself sleep on it. Things may not be better in the morning, but at least you'll have a clear head to consider every possibility before you make that final choice.

So you were dumped, the world still moves forward. So you were raped and it is terrible but if you kill yourself because of it your rapist wins. You are being beaten fight back, or get out of there. There are many people that will help you with that. So you are being picked on, big deal everyone gets picked on, it sucks I know, but your best bet is to just use it as fuel to achieve greatness and rub it in their faces later. You die that's it for you, but everyone around you is left with your mess.

I'm sure this part will ruffle some feathers, but I don't care...

I am sick of people coming to me saying they are going to kill themselves just to hurt me, but have no intention in following through. I'm okay with being there for people when they are feeling that bad, but if you are doing it just for attention, then don't call me. Cutters are the worst, they never intend to kill themselves they just want attention, it's sick. Why don't you try getting positive attention or is that too hard for you? Emotional vampires is all they are, sucking you dry, then moving onto their next victim when you've had enough of their routine. Don't be their swan.

Anyway, I'm tired so let me finish by saying what I said in the video. Suicide effects everyone around you and the effects are devastating. So if you think you will hurt someone by doing it, then you just found a reason to live. Someone cares about you.

Thanks,

~Ana





Taken
its not selfish, its your right as a human being...to live or to die, only you have the right over your own life, how can you take that away from someone? Just because YOU enjoy their presents doesnt mean that they should stay alive...that is selfish

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Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you.

March 1, 2013, 7:00PM



Masigno
I don't think it's as simple as being a human's right to do so. I agree on principle but, each human life is an investment made by the populace. Someone clothed you and fed you for several years I'm sure. I think it's owed by everyone to try and live.

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Victims? Don't be melodramatic. Look down there. Tell me. Would you really feel any pity if one of those dots stopped moving forever? If I offered you twenty thousand pounds for every dot that stopped, would you really, old man, tell me to keep my money?

March 7, 2013, 1:40PM



Taken
population control.

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Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you.

March 7, 2013, 2:59PM



dark_crow
There is nothing selfish about suicide - Everyone has a choice and that includes breathing. Sometimes its better for people to die that are truly suffering.

I think its pretty ignorant you think Cutters are attention seeking - There's a difference from self harming and seeking attention . People that cut themselves don't cut where their scars/marks can be seen, they feel ashamed by it and hide the evidence very well from others. Its a release for them, to distract them , to take away the bad feeling they have, thats taking over their souls...I know this because I use to do it and I never did it for attention.

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IM EATING YOU, IM OVER FED...YOUR MILK IS IN MY MOUTH IT MAKES ME SICK! THEY SAY I'M PLUMP BUT I THROW UP ALL THE TIME...LIKE A LIAR AT A WITCH TRIAL YOU LOOK GOOD FOR YOUR AGE

March 9, 2013, 1:10AM



Taken
what if you cut for sexual gratification lol

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Show me a sane man and I will cure him for you.

March 9, 2013, 1:23AM



zeef
Strong opinion warning.

Everything is selfish about suicide. I, and many other people can agree, that the majority of cutting these days is attention-seeking. Sure, some of it may be because that person may derive some sort of a sick pleasure or relief from it, but that's only one side of the story. Pleasure or relief from cutting oneself is unhealthy. It doesn't justify doing it. It doesn't make it more acceptable. In fact, it makes it seem just as twisted. There are other, more productive and rewarding ways to deal with your problems. It's up to you to figure out what those are. People can pretend they don't do it for attention, for the sole reason that they don't want to be viewed as an attention whore, but I think that in the long run, they do, and they are.

I hold a massive contempt for people who commit or threaten suicide. Nobody's telling them that they can't do what they want with their bodies, no. They can kill themselves if they want to, depending how they go about it, nobody can actually stop them. People let loved ones die ALL THE TIME, if they see it for the best (i.e pulling the plug). But tbh, in the case of suicide, it isn't for the best. They shouldn't be allowed to take their own lives. Why? Suicide is often a product of deluded thoughts. I'm all for seeing them thrown into a hospital, because it seems like they never have a good enough reason to kill themselves to begin with. Realizing this later on, they often change their minds about it. I wonder why?

However, the fact that they go down that road just proves how little gratitude or consideration they have to the people around them. Most people have suicidal thoughts BECAUSE they are underestimating the amount of care people actually hold towards them. So they often kill themselves over something that is: Not true. Or changeable.

I've had suicidal thoughts a couple times earlier on in my life, and I can safely say I wasn't giving two shits about what anybody thought. In the end, I decided to never think like that again. Not only because of how I'd make the people around me feel, but because I'm not a fan of pain, because failure would be scary, because death is the unknown (rather stick to what I know), because it's the easy way out, because it's admitting defeat. It's foolish and weak. We were meant to survive as long as humanly possible, otherwise we would be extinct already. Ya dig?

I'm aware that my opinions on this matter are pretty harsh. Whenever somebody threatens suicide over something stupid, I usually tell them that if they're going to kill themselves over that, then they have messed up priorities and probably deserve to be dead. If they need help and they're willing to get help, then they deserve that help. Otherwise, it's survival of the fittest I guess. I have no respect for people who are going to waste other people's time and emotions with stupid crap, for stupid reasons, and are hardly willing to fix themselves.

That being said OP, I'm sorry the people around you are so dumb. There's literally nothing you could have done, so there's no huge point in dwelling on it. What's done, is done. Albeit I completely sympathize with you on overthinking, I probably couldn't stop myself either. It's a heavy and confusing topic. Just give it some time. Your feelings of understanding mashed up with contempt are completely valid, imo. Don't listen to these suckers. They're depressing.

March 12, 2013, 6:23AM



Velheim
I'm sick of people who only acknowledge the suicides of people they care about but give a fuck less about anyone else meeting their demise by their own hand.



March 12, 2013, 12:43PM



dark_crow
This was a horrid write up

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IM EATING YOU, IM OVER FED...YOUR MILK IS IN MY MOUTH IT MAKES ME SICK! THEY SAY I'M PLUMP BUT I THROW UP ALL THE TIME...LIKE A LIAR AT A WITCH TRIAL YOU LOOK GOOD FOR YOUR AGE

March 12, 2013, 8:04PM



my_little_pony
I think suicide is the bodies way of saying "Hey, I'm defective! I do not need to reproduce, get me the heck out of here." Pretty harsh, but I believe it to be true. Some suicidal people can be helped and can go on to lead happy lives, others can't and live lives full of pain and misery. If a person is going to kill themselves, they are going to do it whether they think it is right or not. My only prayer for them is that they don't screw up and live the rest of their lives as an invalid.

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Isn't it enough to know that I ruined a pony making a gift for you?

March 22, 2013, 8:02PM


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