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BTW: i'm not pretending anymore. i am who i am.
I'm not a size two, and i'm not a supermodel. my bones don't pop out of every part of my body and i cant promise you the world. i'm not the most gorgeous woman ever, and it's just who i am. accept it, or move on.
I guess i'm still my daddy's chunkey monkey
and he's smiling down from Heaven on me (:
 Daddy♥
i hope you know, you'll always be my hero.
and although i've come to terms with the fact you cant come home..
i know you're here, i finally get it.
you never left, you're right here with me, at all times. in my heart.
I love you daddy, that will never change. I promise.♥
I remember it like it was yesterday.
I remember that day like it was merely just yesterday.
You were so cold and I was so confused.
I remember wanting to get a blanket and cover you up.
I remember wondering when you'd wake up..
I guess it was just too hard for my 4 year old brain to comprehend.
Dead didn't mean sleeping..it didn't mean gone for only a little while.
I still tell myself you'll come back one day.
I still curse God to this day for taking you from me.
What most people don't know is that I still feel your face on my fingertips.
The cold leathery dry feel of your skin.
I can still feel the last kiss I ever gave you.
You know My mother says that during your wake..
I'd grab peoples hands and smile up at them
I'd say "Come look at my daddy, he's going to Heaven. Isn't he so pretty?!"
I was so young and unaware that Heaven wasn't good.
It hurts because when I close my eyes I feel your dead, cold skin upon my fingertips..and it just wont go away no matter how hard I try.
When they were lowering you down into the dirt I remember wanting to run from the car and climb into that casket with you.
I think it was that minute I realized you'd never come back.
But I still held hope, I still told myself that you were coming back for me.
And there is that 4 year old little girl inside of me now, who wont stop thinking the same exact thing.
Is it awful of me to Hate God?
To hate him for taking you from me?
Am I a bad person?
I LOVE YOU DADDY.
I miss you..come home soon..
please..
i was named after this man, actually: ♥
&& For reasons you could never understand, this makes me smile: (: ♥.
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mylastblkrose.deviantart
suchaprettygiirl.myspace
Formspring.me/nerdydoll
Twitter/Nerdydolly
Nerdydolly.tumblr
Open up. Tear me apart at the seams.
I've come to realize some new things in the past couple of months.
Those things have taught me a lot as well and I'm thankful for all the 'mistakes' i've made, and all the 'mess ups' I have had.
They make me who I am, and I wouldn't take any of them back.
I found my way long ago and promised myself I wouldn't get lost again.
That was a promise I failed to keep.
This time I refuse to promise,
I'll just promise to try my hardest, that way if I 'fail' than I'll know I atleast tried my hardest.
I am going to try to find my way again,
I am going to try to stop taking for granted all the beauty the world possesses.
There have been days that i've failed to see the beauty in even the smallest of things.
I am not that girl, I am not the girl who can look at something and think it's anything less than beautiful. There is no ugly in the world unless we chose to see it.
I've always been the girl who finds everything beautiful.
I wont blame the world for my hatred or spite,
I will never blame anyone for fuck ups, and or my mistakes.
They don't possess any blame.
There is so much that I need to get out, and express.
So much fighting to escape.
Picking at every lock within my chest..trying to find the air that they need to stay alive.
When I look in the mirror nowadays I see the hatred created by my own mind.
 Sometimes in Life I guess we just have to accept the difficulties, put the pain in the past, and stop dwelling.
As a little girl it was so much easier to let the pain go, because I never truly believed it.
You know when you're just a little kid and you are told something, you let it go in one ear and out another for one reason or another.
Whether that reason be the lack of understanding the content of the statement, or the simpleness of not caring, and being as free as a bird.
I'd love to just find that again..
Daffodils that come before the swallow dares, and takes the winds of March with beauty.
Eternity is in love with the productions of time.
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
Fire and Ice -Robert Frost
I'm not asking you to love me, or like me.
I'm not asking you to be my best friend, or even my friend.
But I'm a human being, and like all the rest, I deserve respect.
I wont say i'm this or i'm that.
In the end, I'm only me and I wont change for a single one of you.
Like everyone else in the world, I can be selfish, and I can be mean.
I will never sit here and tell you i'm perfect, because I simply don't believe in perfection.
I'm only perfectly imperfect.
Photography and art is LOVE.
I truly enjoy photography and art, It's a true love and passion of mine.♥.
♥.♥.♥.♥.
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There is no other i'll love like you.
I promise to miss you until you come home.
I promise i'll never let harm come your way.
I love you.
 Alex;;
True love only comes along once in a lifetime, I know it's cliche but it's the damned truth.
There is no such thing as falling out of love with someone you really truly are in love with.
That is why I know that I will never not love you, because the love and happiness I feel for and with you is undeniable, unbelievable, unimaginable.
I don't think it's possible to explain in words, or even actions.
I keep trying to come up with the exact words to express how much I love you.
I've been trying for years now and I just cant sum it all up into a short tiny phrase, or a pretty little quote.
The last 3 years that i've known you have been outstanding, beautiful, and wonderful.
You make me feel something I didn't know it was humanly possible to feel.
I always thought that true love only existed in the pages and depths of childhood fairytales and romantic comedies that make peoples heart melt.
I was wrong, because with you've I have truly found what everyone spends a lifetime looking for.
What I've spent so long yearning for.
To say you complete me is like saying that the night sky is 'pretty'
It's just not enough. The night sky is beautiful and magical, and you make me feel at home.
I've spent my whole life not feeling like I've had a 'home.
Even though I had more than one house to go to.
You make me feel safe.
That is more than I can say for anyone.
It really is amazing that we know eachother so well, and how much we really do love eachother.
I spent my whole life watching my great grandparents be in love and it was beautiful.
Everyone says it's not possible to be with the one person you first love for the rest of your life.
My great gramma fell in love with my great grampa at 16, and she's almost 80 now and although his mortal days are now over, and he's in Heaven..she's still in love with him.
I cant wait until we finally can be in eachothers arms forever and always.
It brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes thinking about when we have our beautiful babies and grand babies..and we spend forever happy together.
I know that one day we will be sitting in rocking chairs watching our great grandchildren playing in our yard while we hold hands.
I love you, and that could never ever change.
That's a promise, and you know I don't break them.
>>True Love Story<<
Trenton Louis Babyboy;
 
You're the only boy for me;
click for his story.♥
Krysta && Paige
read about them.♥
you have been my bestfriend for 10 years.
i will always love you.♥.
Hey There Pretty Boy;
With those eyes that shine so bright.
I miss you, That's all I have to say for now.
I'd tell you that to your face, but you don't give me the time of day.
♥ Lindsey.
He can profile me, anyday.
JUSSS SAYYIIINNN.♥.
HE MAKED ME STITCH BITCH.
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Daddy♥
i hope you know, you'll always be my hero.
and although i've come to terms with the fact you cant come home..
i know you're here, i finally get it.
you never left, you're right here with me, at all times. in my heart.
I love you daddy, that will never change. I promise.♥
I remember it like it was yesterday.
I remember that day like it was merely just yesterday.
You were so cold and I was so confused.
I remember wanting to get a blanket and cover you up.
I remember wondering when you'd wake up..
I guess it was just too hard for my 4 year old brain to comprehend.
Dead didn't mean sleeping..it didn't mean gone for only a little while.
I still tell myself you'll come back one day.
I still curse God to this day for taking you from me.
What most people don't know is that I still feel your face on my fingertips.
The cold leathery dry feel of your skin.
I can still feel the last kiss I ever gave you.
You know My mother says that during your wake..
I'd grab peoples hands and smile up at them
I'd say "Come look at my daddy, he's going to Heaven. Isn't he so pretty?!"
I was so young and unaware that Heaven wasn't good.
It hurts because when I close my eyes I feel your dead, cold skin upon my fingertips..and it just wont go away no matter how hard I try.
When they were lowering you down into the dirt I remember wanting to run from the car and climb into that casket with you.
I think it was that minute I realized you'd never come back.
But I still held hope, I still told myself that you were coming back for me.
And there is that 4 year old little girl inside of me now, who wont stop thinking the same exact thing.
Is it awful of me to Hate God?
To hate him for taking you from me?
Am I a bad person?
I LOVE YOU DADDY.
I miss you..come home soon..
please..
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